Slipping

I am embarking on the more challenging classes and I am afraid that I cant hack it! Now personally, I know I will make it. But it is pretty scary and unsettling to fall behind in something that I want so bad. I am researching different careers for Psychology majors and I am pretty intrested in what will come about after I finish this degree. However, the reality is that it is going to take me 10 plus years to achieve the level that I need for the position that I desire. On the other hand, I realize that just having a degree puts me closer to the dream than quiting now. I AM NOT QUITING!! I am strong and determined and it is done.

The great news is that the things that I am learning now can immediately be applied to my work and to my entreprenurial wips (works in progress). To my book, my curriculum and to my plan of ownership...

I am done venting and I will undoubtably be back to work tomorrow.... thanks for listening.

The valley of decisions...

So, I am thinking of starting a new blog. I know, I know... I can hear you now, I have a hard enough time updating this one- but thats not true. I dont want to crowd this blog that is about my journey of evolving and blossoming; with trivial thoughts and daily topics of my mind. Will that take away from what I do now...probably but I do not intend for it too. I am contemplating. But I also need an outlet for those trivial issues and thoughts. So what to do???

When I Grow Up

I think everyone was asked "What do you want to do when you grow up?" I think everyone had the typical response thinking of a career. You typically don't hear life experiences. I am a grown up, with a career and I still want to answer this question. So here is my answers:

1. Relocate- It is my dream to move to another state. Where? Atlanta Georgia, North Carolina, Pennsylvania some where other than MD. Please don't get me wrong, the DMV is great. I was born and raised in this area and I wouldn't change that at all. However, God created this awesome world with all of its wonderful opportunities and I should be out there conquering these areas and their opportunities.

2. To obtain my B.A. in Psy- If you have read my blog at all you will understand this desire and the current movement towards getting it.

3. To be a Traveler- I desire to travel the world. Just as I mentioned in #1, I desire to see God's world and to seek those opportunities.

4. Get a tattoo. I have wanted a tattoo for quite sometime but I haven't been brave enough to get one. I am looking into getting one-i am researching the design and I am looking to see exactly what I want and where I want it.

5. To start (and keep)my own family- a husband (who wants the same things that I want and more and 4 perfect, beautiful children.

6. Create my own line of plus size clothing. Today while reading about the psychosexual theories, and the psychosocial traits, I came up with using my psychology background to design a line of clothing that will appeal to the mental triggers that make you feel good... A thought and an idea, we will see where it takes me.

Life's Choices-To be or not to be...What's the freaking answer!

Life can be easier or harder when compared or analyzed. As a young girl, there was nothing, I mean NOTHING that I thought I could not do. I had soooo many hopes and dreams and expectations. But the choices I made narrowed the hopes which narrowed the dreams which narrowed the expectations. My life could have been very different if I would have made different and possibly better choices. Those different and possibly better choices would have provided me with 3 Baccalaureate Degrees or 2 PH D's by this time in my life. Those choices could have provided me with a successful business or something better. Where is the time machine when you need one???

Sacrifices come into play as well when thinking about life choices. At the time, you make the choice, it seems like the best way to go (if you think it all the way through) but now thinking back, there were choices that I could have differently to create different outcomes. A couple years ago, I had the opportunity of working until 3pm, this is the best schedule ever. But I made the choice to make more money rather than enjoy the God given opportunity laid out before me. It is just these types of decisions that I make that cost me dearly. So, how do I change this? I'm am working on it and I will let you know when I know!

Steps ahead and set backs

Feelings of accomplishment and of success are undescribable. However, the feelings of failure and setbacks are indescribable (if that's a word!)Basically, what I am saying is that: you can -if you have too- put words together to describe accomplishment and success. But for failure and setbacks, it is damn near impossible. It is draining emotionally and physically. You then begin to evaluate your surroundings- what stays because it or they are liabilities and what should stay- because they or it are assets.

Well, I am experiencing setbacks -in some areas. I wont go into any details but I am just feeling down. I am stuck at home on 4th of July and I cant see my family or the fireworks. This is no one person's fault but it just is!

I have experienced multiple failures and setbacks in these past couple of years. But to be honest, these have been challenging times but a real reality check. I am leaning that my level of success is not measured by the things that I have but by the things that I accomplish. And, with God's grace, this lesson will be learned once and I will never forget it! Until next time, stay safe and humble!